Friday, October 30, 2009 at 4:02 AM
Roller-Coaster Ride
This is the best roller-coaster ride I've been since forever. I have to say, thank you.
I had my ups and downs. It was almost crazy. It wasn't the best time of my life, but hey, my ups made me so happy I could touch the sky and reach the clouds and know if they really are cotton candy.
Along the ride, I had lots of friends with me and they all rocked my socks off. They are the best batch of friends I had since... a long long time ago.
Zildjian,
Meryl,
Karen and
Katreena, you guys are so awesome it actually makes me laugh out loud whenever I think of you guys. I cried tears, of happiness or just plain emo-ness, but you guys were there. I'm sorry I have to be much of a burden, but I'll try being there for you guys too. :)
I'll try changing for you guys, forget about the things that are supposed to be forgotten, and just have fun!
Cheers for the next months of complete torture and exams! LOL
The Big Bad Bitch,
Samantha ♥
Saturday, October 24, 2009 at 3:24 AM
The Typical Break Up Story
It ended in a letter. It officially ended; you're now officially single.
The letter says that he "fell in love". Sadly, not with the same person he was with long ago.
Well, it was good while it lasted, you simply thought. Deep inside, you felt so rejected. You felt so hurt. You never cried so much in your life.
Everybody knew about it. When you went online, PMs flooded your screen.
I heard what happened, bb. I'm so sorry. :(
Ugh, that jerk-face! I'm so gonna beat the crap outta him!
Girl, cry it all out.
I've been there. It's gonna take a lot of chocolates.
What do these people know about what's happening? You feel perfectly fine, you say.
He betrayed you! What do you have to say? NOTHING? Crying's not gonna make him come back, that's for sure! You're weak! That's why he left you! You're crying like a sissy when it's all your fault!That's all you could say to yourself, and you lock your room's door, crying out for him. He's all you need. Sadly, it ended. Everything ended pretty fast, and you can't keep up.
I'm so sorry... I fell in love with this girl...You lifted the letter, your eyes filled with tears. You re-read the letter, knowing heartbreak was all that nursed you all the way to the end.
She wants me too, and I think she's the one I've been looking for...You nearly wanted to tear the letter apart. You screamed, trying to drown the noisy knocks on the door with your cries.
I'm sorry it has to end this way...
You got off the bed, and threw his picture down the floor. The teddy bear he gave you was already on the floor and looking at you with its googly eyes.
I can't love you this way.You remember nothing afterwards. Drowsiness made you fell asleep, and that was all that mattered. Sleep didn't hurt.
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Weeks after, you look blooming than ever. Your suitors lined up. They wanted you.
You shrugged them off.
Surprisingly, someone lined up for you. Someone you wanted so much in the past. He gave you a letter, again. You laughed. This crap again?
I was so in love with you There was nothing I could do Wouldn't give me the time of day Now you wanna be with me You say you wanna be with me I was blind to let go.It tore your heart apart.
You said I was the best Gave your love out to the rest There was nothing I could say But now it's going good for me You say you wanna be with me Now
Please, give me another chance.You decided to tear it into pieces while he's watching.
Yeah your telling me I am were it's at
But I ain't having none of that You walked away. You decided not to look back.
Because if you do, you might've fallen for the same trap for the second time around.
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TBC. :)
Thursday, October 22, 2009 at 6:19 AM
Possessive.
The pieces were falling down slowly, and perfectly they aligned for me to read it clearly: He's not yours to begin with.
Why are you acting to possessive to someone you don't own? In the first place, you can't own anyone. You have no right to tell him who to talk to, who to be with, who to cherish every single moment with. Why are you so possessive?
Don't go with the "love" crap again. You're jealous. You're afraid you won't get to be with him again like you wished. You're alone, JADED, rejected. You're the brattiest, bitchiest, most pessimist person anyone would know. Who are you to talk?
Don't start crying. I'm not yet done.
He'll get sick of this crap soon. I suggest you change.
I know it hurts. You love him, yes, but alas, you're not his and he's not yours. Everything has changed since then, and you have to accept the facts.
He might not take you back.
His feelings will fade anytime soon.
He loves you now, what about tomorrow?
You have no right to cry. Not even a tear. Cry, and you'll be considered weak. Cry, and you'll break. Break hard. This isn't the first time you've been like this, you know. Don't be so assured that he'll take you back. Remember his recent? You're supposed to be the one, right? So why did he take her when you're the one he wants?
It's because he can, and he will. SO I suggest you stop dreaming.
Saturday, October 17, 2009 at 2:36 AM
If you were to run, never look back.
If you were to run, never look back. Never. Why?
What if you left something that you know you can't get, but still you persist on getting it, and go back. In the process, you hurt yourself on trying to get it back.
Here's comes the twist.
What if you were running with someone? You leave him for your own selfish reasons. He gets hurt, he's left astray, and he waits for you to come back just to make you feel more miserable. Why? He's gonna prove one point: You shouldn't have looked back.
When you see the thing you want to get back, you'll be surprised how hard it is to hold on to it and run. No matter how hard it is to admit it, you know it's true: it's already owned by someone else, and you have no right to simply take it away from the owner because you're the one who carelessly left it.
You got hurt, and tried to run to catch up with the one you were running with ages ago. But those days are over.
What's left in the story... Oh, your ending. Sadly, your ending isn't happy as it all seems. Stop dreaming. Look what you did, and look closely, because you won't be able to see this the second time, believe me.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009 at 5:17 AM
Irony
I've been screaming this for a while now.
IRONY CAN FUCKING SUCK IT. SUCK IT HARD.I could use something stronger than water here. Stronger = bottle of Tequila. Or a Kamikazee would do fine.
Sorry for my hiatus-ness. Or something that suggests inactivity. I just don't feel like mingling with OHTEHAWESOME blogs. I do read and appreciate them and that's a fucking achievement, so CLAP WITH ME.
Thursday, October 1, 2009 at 12:52 AM
Make a wish, darling.
100th post ko na to. Congratulate niyo naman ako.Nakalulungkot mang isipin, naiinis ako magbasa ng blog ng mga tao. Bakit? Ah, hindi ko na ikaklaro ang punto ko, baka naman mainis kayo sakin. Matagal na kong blogger. Kita ko naman kung sino yung mga bago. Medyo nagbago ng onti ang meaning ng "blogging" sa iba e. Di ko na rin ikaklaro yung punto ko kasi what's the use, eh siguradong walang magbabago.
A little sense naman of individuality, people. Ano ba yan.
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I absolutely adore Hollywood. You know why? Bitches are everywhere and people debate on whether she's fucking hate-able or lovable. Fans can be a little obsessed with this, believe me, but nothing can beat TEHAWESOMEFANGIRLISM of the OMGRUNIT'STHETWILIGHTFANGIRLS. True fact.
So I'm loving ONTD. I'm pretty much staying on this side of the gossip, thanks.
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So, parang sembreak. And as usual, wala pa kong nasisimulan. Kasi kayo e. Dapat alam niyo ang kasabihang, "Ang mabait na bata ay di nasusukat lamang sa pagmumukha." At dapat niyong malaman na gawa-gawa ko lang yang kasabihang yan, kaya kung napa-oo ka dyan, ewan ko nalang talaga sayo.
Grabe naman ako kung mang-insulto. Ay wait. Nang-iinsulto ba ko? Kala ko mabait na ko ng lagay na to e. SORRY, mga tao (using "people" in phrases are so OVERRATED, especially kung alam mong daming wannabes na gumagamit. Go figure.), masyadong maiinitin ang ulo ko.
Hay na'ko. Tatapusin ko nalang tong post na to para masabing MAY NAPOST AKO SA OCTOBER MONTH
HELL YEAH BTCHZ.
